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(no subject) [Nov. 11th, 2004|11:43 pm]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
[Current Mood |blankblank]

i don't know how i should feel right now...well i guess it should be sad. but for some reason i just don't feel sad, i care. i really do...but i just can't seem to sit there and watch my best friend throw her life away anymore. because that's what it feels like when we hang out lately....and it breaks my heart. i can't watch the drinking and other things anymore. i can't watch her with her arm around him anymore, when he does nothing for her but drag her down. he's like a boulder tied to her ankle, and she just keeps sinking further into the ocean. i love the girl to death, i've known her for 14 years of my life. but i just can't do it anymore...and i can't seem to tell her why i've basically stopped hanging with her. so i come here to spill my guts....my heart.  why can't we stay 6 years old forever....shit would be so much easier.
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(no subject) [Nov. 6th, 2004|01:19 am]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
[Current Mood |lonelylonely]
[Current Music |little green bag.]

shit has been sucky lately. i haven't slept in days.. my eyes have this glazed look in them. but i just can't seem to sleep. i think i'm just extremely lonely, as pathetic as it is. i need someone...anyone, just to come over late at night and hang with me. late night talks are always great things, and i need someone to lay in bed with because it's too cold too lay in bed alone. but by the looks of it, the spot next to me will be forever vacant....holy shit how pathetic am i?
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(no subject) [Nov. 2nd, 2004|08:41 am]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
[Current Mood |sleepysleepy]
[Current Music |mcr - ghost of you]

feel like i'm back in fucking school. woke up at 6:30 this morning..just cause i couldn't force myself back to sleep. and now i'm sitting here, while i should be getting ready for work..oh well. i went and saw that movie saw on saturday, and than afterwards while me and my friend were walking to my car, she said my name..than some guy walking by us was like..."keri?." so i was like, uhhh yeah. and he was like you don't remember me? and i said no, should i? than he told me his name was steve, and my mouth fucking dropped and i froze. i haven't talked to steve since i was in like 8th fucking grade. weird part is number one he looks totally fucking different, nothing like what i remembered. and number two, he just walked away from me! he was like wow, i haven't seen you since i was in high school, and i was like since i was in grammer school. than he just walked away. and i was like okay..... it was weird, and for the rest of the night i was fucking bugged out. like there was just something about the whole situation that made me like...i don't know, nevermind. anyshit, the movie saw was pure fucking love. i enjoyed it a lot..so much that i just may go see it again. but i need to go get ready for work..and go serve people some fucking coffee all day...later days kids, later days.

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(no subject) [Oct. 25th, 2004|12:44 am]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |folly.]

..shits has calmed down in my house. my parents are semi-talking to me again. fuck it...i can't wait till the day i come home with my fucking bridge pierced..that'll be strike three. cause as of right noe my mom tells me i have two strikes against me..one more and my ass gets kicked out. anyshit..nothing has really been happening lately. i've basically just been doing jack shit besides working and hanging with people. i cleaned my room today..and while doing that i figured it was time to maybe re-paint. it's been the same for about two years now, and the silver walls and blue ceiling are getting boring. i had this weekend off, and went to frieght fest saturday..but it wasn't as good as i remember. i hadn't been to six flags in like 4 years before than..and it's kind of stupid now. but back to work tomorrow..and i think the new store manager starts tomorrow. this week i have a few things planned..should be fun. but for now i think it's time i go lay in bed with my headphone on and try to finish a drawing that i started months ago..and found today while cleaning my room. later days kids.
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(no subject) [Oct. 21st, 2004|11:52 pm]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
it's fucking world war 3 in my house right about now. my dad is quite pissed at me. this whole like past week has been shitty, i've been getting in trouble like everyday. me and my parents have been fighting non-stop, and when i just came home with my lip pierced my dad flipped shit. i'm pretty sure i'm either going to get kicked out eventually, or they're just going to kill me.  fuck it...hopefully all this shit will blow over soon. later days kids.
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(no subject) [Oct. 14th, 2004|11:32 am]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
[Current Mood |contentcontent]
[Current Music |bob dylan..]

haven't been able to write in this shit as of late due to the fact my computer sucks big donkey dick. but anyshit, nothing to great to get off my mind, because i dont really keep to much on there anymore. i've come to the point where i just dont seem to care...about anything really. insomnia i think has finally pushed me to my limit. haven't slept in about a week, i've taken little half hour/hour naps...but i haven't really slept. i haven't really done anything lately besides go to work, and go hang with people. and it's the same thing everyday, wake up go to work get people their damn coffee and whatnot. than go home change and go hang out. it's not really a bad thing, i'm actually quite content with where i am right now...i guess. i have off today which is good shit, and i have to go buy a new outfit. because tomorrow night me, kristin and ry [hopefully she comes] will be going to the male review. and since everyshirt in my dresser is either a band tee or a pocket tee, i believe i need to go get an outfit. so for now i'm off to shower, and get ready to go out. and for my next update...well that's a mystery. later days kids.
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(no subject) [Oct. 7th, 2004|11:19 am]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...

..man i'm fucking oblivious to the world. i just  learned that rodney dangerfield died a few days ago. and i just watched back to school the other night...

r.i.p. rodney dangerfield.

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(no subject) [Oct. 6th, 2004|09:29 pm]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
[Current Mood |okayokay]
[Current Music |from autumn to ashes - reflections.]

...so my computer been like on it's fucking death bed. somedays it works, somedays it doesn't. but anyshit, the other day i went and got my tarot cards and palm read. it's not so much i ever believe in that shit, it was just for fun. but some of the bullshit she was saying kind of made sense...whatever. shit been normal lately..work is okay. just sucks when people find the littlest things to complain about. besides that the people are all pretty cool, and outside work i've been hanging with different people from the norm. i hung with this one chick tonight from school, i hadn't seen her since graduation. so we hung and it was good shit. went to the mall and i got like 5 pair of underwear. and saw these awesome nipples rings at a store, but didn't get them...another day. besides that we just kicked it at her house for the night. and now i'm home..wide awake, wishing someone would come over and lay in bed with me and watch movies all night...but it looks like that vacant spot next to me in bed will stay that way. later days kids, later days.
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(no subject) [Sep. 27th, 2004|12:02 pm]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
[Current Mood |soresore]
[Current Music |rn - decisions]

shit is weird as of late. it's like i'm having a bad day that is lasting a few days. saturday finally went to a show. me and ry drove to irvington to to the cricket club. went to go see remembering never and terror. let's just say the cricket club and everyone who was there saturday night...fuck you. i got to see reemembering never. but once terror came on, shit was over. like 4 massive fights broke out. they cut the singer's mic. and than finally terror just walked off the stage. than as me and ry were walking out cause we had enough, i heard the guy say the show was over. bullshit...all i wanted to do was fucking see terror play. later days kids.


-p.s...music is about love kids, just remember that.

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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2004|09:52 am]
...forget my name, for i am nothing...
[Current Mood |coldcold]
[Current Music |none.]

it's fucking unbelievabley freezing. it was last night..and still is. my whole body is shaking. anyshit, today is only my third say of work...and i still kind of suck. it's weird though because thursday was like my first real day, so i learned to make drinks. than i came in friday and they threw me on register. but the other two girls were telling me how they weren't put on register until like their second week. and now i still don't know how to make drinks perfect, and i work 12-5 today..i just hope they don't stick me on register cause it's sunday and that means it'll probably be busy.

..ryann and me have been hanging out a lot lately, and i think it's bother kristin. i don't know why but everytime she calls and i'm with ry, she gets all pissed like...fuck it. ry dyed my hair for me last night, a nice dark red/brown...and it is pure fucking love. my mom's all pissed now an dwon't talk to me..fuck that too. for now i have to go shower and get ready for work, later days kids.

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